Yuri's still silent, looking at his hand, tucked into Victor's, and Yuri is often quiet, but this seems different. Hard on the tail of another apology, as if there was absolutely anything for him to be sorry about, when that was precisely the reaction Victor wanted: laughter, relaxation, reaching for him.
How could any of that be something he'd think Victor wouldn't want?
So he waits for Yuri to meet his eyes again, but it keeps not happening, and he's never been very good at trying to read Yuri's mind. Wasn't today, certainly, and that's the thought that spurs him to ask, quiet and coaxing: "What are you thinking?"
Maybe today would have been easier if he'd asked that earlier. Maybe Yuri would have been able to work through everything with him, like usual, instead of holding it in until he exploded in the garage in tears and shouts that Victor can still see and hear all too clearly.
Was some part of him still worried about that? Was he being sincere with that raw and angry I know!, or does he still think Victor wants to quit, that maybe he might somehow ... fail Victor?
Whatever it is, they can work it out together, but he wants to know. Has to know. If they never have another day like today again, it'll be too soon.
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Date: 2017-04-18 01:15 am (UTC)How could any of that be something he'd think Victor wouldn't want?
So he waits for Yuri to meet his eyes again, but it keeps not happening, and he's never been very good at trying to read Yuri's mind. Wasn't today, certainly, and that's the thought that spurs him to ask, quiet and coaxing: "What are you thinking?"
Maybe today would have been easier if he'd asked that earlier. Maybe Yuri would have been able to work through everything with him, like usual, instead of holding it in until he exploded in the garage in tears and shouts that Victor can still see and hear all too clearly.
Was some part of him still worried about that? Was he being sincere with that raw and angry I know!, or does he still think Victor wants to quit, that maybe he might somehow ... fail Victor?
Whatever it is, they can work it out together, but he wants to know. Has to know. If they never have another day like today again, it'll be too soon.