What is this expression on Yuri's face? It's some combination of frustration and determination that looks more like his stubborn need to get something right an hour after Victor is already exhausted and wants to call it a day. He looks like he wants to logic his way to the bottom of this, but Victor's not sure there's such a thing as logic involved. If there was, he'd probably still be back in Russia right now and Yuri would have simply slipped into quiet retirement. Victor's not even certain there should be a place for logic here. It's cold, uncaring stuff, nothing at all like the way he feels more him when Yuri's looking at him with happiness or affection or even fond exasperation in his face.
And he hates this cautious tone, too, almost as much as he hates the question it's backing, enough that his negation fairly bursts out of him. "Of course I meant it."
This feels more like a few hours ago in the garage than like any other time they try to work something out or come to an understanding, and he supposes it's probably because the stakes are higher now than they ever were before. If they can't figure this out, what happens to them?
But he knows the answer to this question like he knows his own face in the mirror, even as he's horrified at the thought that Yuri might think he's somehow joking, as if this would be an appropriate thing to tease about. "I wouldn't joke about that, not with you."
He's never joked about any of this with Yuri before, has always been as sincere as he knows how to be, as honest as possible, and the thought that maybe Yuri might think otherwise flummoxes him so completely it leaves him wondering what else Yuri might have thought he didn't mean.
Isn't it a sort of normal thing to ask, when you want to be with someone?
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Date: 2017-04-20 12:00 pm (UTC)And he hates this cautious tone, too, almost as much as he hates the question it's backing, enough that his negation fairly bursts out of him. "Of course I meant it."
This feels more like a few hours ago in the garage than like any other time they try to work something out or come to an understanding, and he supposes it's probably because the stakes are higher now than they ever were before. If they can't figure this out, what happens to them?
But he knows the answer to this question like he knows his own face in the mirror, even as he's horrified at the thought that Yuri might think he's somehow joking, as if this would be an appropriate thing to tease about. "I wouldn't joke about that, not with you."
He's never joked about any of this with Yuri before, has always been as sincere as he knows how to be, as honest as possible, and the thought that maybe Yuri might think otherwise flummoxes him so completely it leaves him wondering what else Yuri might have thought he didn't mean.
Isn't it a sort of normal thing to ask, when you want to be with someone?