He feels a little like he'll never be able to stop blinking at Yuri in bewilderment. "Is that such a surprise?"
Honestly, he hadn't thought he'd been all that subtle about his intentions, once he'd finally arrived in Hasetsu, even if Yuri acted like he'd never proffered that invitation, or asked Victor to come be his coach. He'd been pretty straightforward, hadn't he? Enough that Yuri had asked him to stop, had told him no, that wasn't what he wanted?
Which pings in Victor's head now, while the bemusement on his face gives way to cautious uncertainty. "I know you said you didn't want ... that ... from me, before. That day on the beach, you said ––"
No, no, no, no, no, no. A million no's all landing like darts tossed directly at Victor's chest and whatever bubbles of possibility he'd dreamed up, popping them unceremoniously. Just the recollection makes him feel uncomfortable, unhappy, and he taps his chopsticks in a nervous beat against the tray. "That you didn't want me like that."
But he'd thought –– and so much has changed since then –– and Yuri was just in his arms –– "But I thought maybe you'd ... changed your mind."
He still doesn't know if he'd make any kind of decent boyfriend, honestly. He's never been a particularly good one before, and he'd admit to that no matter who asked, or even if Yuri threw it at him as a reason to keep saying no. He couldn't blame him. The other times, though ... that had never been like this. Infatuation, occasionally bursts of burning passion, few and far apart and never lasting long, and he can't even think about them in the same space as how he thinks about, feels about, Yuri.
Perhaps he should have considered that Yuri's feelings haven't actually changed. "I just thought ..." A little helpless, gesturing with the chopsticks before he remembers he has them in his hand and puts them down before he accidentally stabs either Yuri or himself and makes this whole conversation much worse than it already is. "... it would be nice."
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Date: 2017-04-20 02:49 am (UTC)Honestly, he hadn't thought he'd been all that subtle about his intentions, once he'd finally arrived in Hasetsu, even if Yuri acted like he'd never proffered that invitation, or asked Victor to come be his coach. He'd been pretty straightforward, hadn't he? Enough that Yuri had asked him to stop, had told him no, that wasn't what he wanted?
Which pings in Victor's head now, while the bemusement on his face gives way to cautious uncertainty. "I know you said you didn't want ... that ... from me, before. That day on the beach, you said ––"
No, no, no, no, no, no. A million no's all landing like darts tossed directly at Victor's chest and whatever bubbles of possibility he'd dreamed up, popping them unceremoniously. Just the recollection makes him feel uncomfortable, unhappy, and he taps his chopsticks in a nervous beat against the tray. "That you didn't want me like that."
But he'd thought –– and so much has changed since then –– and Yuri was just in his arms –– "But I thought maybe you'd ... changed your mind."
He still doesn't know if he'd make any kind of decent boyfriend, honestly. He's never been a particularly good one before, and he'd admit to that no matter who asked, or even if Yuri threw it at him as a reason to keep saying no. He couldn't blame him. The other times, though ... that had never been like this. Infatuation, occasionally bursts of burning passion, few and far apart and never lasting long, and he can't even think about them in the same space as how he thinks about, feels about, Yuri.
Perhaps he should have considered that Yuri's feelings haven't actually changed. "I just thought ..." A little helpless, gesturing with the chopsticks before he remembers he has them in his hand and puts them down before he accidentally stabs either Yuri or himself and makes this whole conversation much worse than it already is. "... it would be nice."