Oh, it gets worse it does. When Victor's mild expression and milder first question suddenly becomes Victor spinning out others, absolutely normal points of question, confusion, while his face becomes - becomes - becomes - fallen. His eyes seemed to get brighter - sadder - more confused - suddenly doubtful and Yuri can't even - breathe in - or - stop wheezing. He can't even tell which.

Except his heart is in his throat, trying to crawl through the front of it. His head is screaming.
And everything in his chest - somehow still attached - becomes a sharp ache at that face.

" いいえ - 私 - 君は - ちょうど." The words are just exploding everywhere, nothing like coherent sense clinging, and definitely nothing like the realization as he slips and doesn't try to come back. "君は 欲しいです 行く - なぜだろう - "

The last word locks his teeth. The one he wasn't supposed to ask, and suddenly hadn't - couldn't stop.